working out, exercising, running. without it, i think that i would just have nothing to keep me going.
i love my kids, and they are everything to me, but as a mom and a wife, WE need time to refuel, refocus, and take care of ourselves.
i don't talk about my personal life on here, other than my fitness goals and journey, but know that i struggle, a lot.
today i broke down, i cried and i cried at the gym. i was trying to keep myself together but i couldn't.
some drastic changes are about to happen, and thoughts ran through my head while i had that hour or two to myself working out today. thoughts i usually ignore, and try to ignore.
how can one feel failure, relief, sadness, happiness all at the same time.
while in class lifting i looked at myself and i felt strong. i am determined, and i'm not going to let this change break me.
i will get through this.
i can get through this.
it will make me stronger.
this might be the hardest thing to get through but there is nothing i cant handle & i know there is that finish line at the end, but i'm going to keep it one step at a time, and try not to look to forward in the future. i've got this.
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